I wrote Choose Hope at a time when I was having trouble affording basic neccesities, dealing with expensive health problems and not really having a support system.
There was a season in my life when darkness seemed to have the final word. Every day felt heavy. Questions outnumbered answers, and fear often felt stronger than faith. I found myself carrying emotional wounds that I didn't know how to heal from and was constantly searching for a way forward when the path ahead seemed impossible to see.
What made that season especially difficult was the feeling of being trapped. I was recently ostracized from my family for speaking up about abuse, I was financially destitute and I was spending thousands of dollars of EMDR treatments and other services because my nervous system was broken. I didn't think that life would ever get better and considered suicide many times.
When you're struggling, it's easy to believe that things will never change. Pain can become so familiar that it starts to feel permanent. I spent a long time trying to understand what had happened to me and why life had taken such an unexpected turn.
Yet somewhere in the middle of that darkness, I discovered something powerful: hope is not the absence of suffering. Hope is a choice.
I didn't wake up one morning completely healed. The challenges didn't suddenly disappear. Instead, hope entered my life through small decisions. It showed up when I chose to keep moving forward despite fear. It appeared when I stopped allowing my circumstances to define my future. It grew each time I believed that my story wasn't over.
Music became one of the ways I processed that journey. Through songwriting and reflection, I began to transform pain into purpose. What once felt like a burden slowly became a source of understanding and compassion. I realized that the struggles I had endured could help someone else feel less alone.
One of the most important lessons I learned is that healing rarely happens in a straight line. There are setbacks, difficult days, and moments when old fears return. But every step forward matters. Every act of courage matters. Every decision to keep believing matters.
Choosing hope doesn't mean pretending everything is okay. It means acknowledging the reality of hardship while refusing to surrender to it. It means trusting that light can exist even in the darkest places. It means believing that tomorrow can be different from today.
Today, when I look back on those difficult years, I don't only see pain. I see growth. I see resilience. I see the moments that shaped me into the person I am becoming. Most importantly, I see proof that hope was stronger than despair.
If you're walking through a dark season right now, know this: your story is still being written. The challenges you're facing today do not determine how your story ends. Hope may feel small, but it is powerful enough to carry you through.
Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is choose hope one day at a time.
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